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I am so happy to be home.

:)

I FEEL SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SICK
AHHHHHHH WHY CRYSTAL?!

so as u may have heard me say on here multiple times, i am on a diet now. a calorie-counting diet. every day, i aim to consume 1200 calories.

well today was a coworker's last day and we had a going-away lunch for her; so we wrote on a list what we wanted to eat from this indian restaurant, and a guy drove over and brought the food back and we had this big feast for the occasion.

I didn't know that the going away lunch would be today, so I'd already packed a lunch for myself. Since we ate sort of late and I was starving, I couldn't help myself, and I pregamed the lunch with a turkey and cheese sandwich. I figured since it was a small sandwich, that I could just eat it first and then still have some room for the indian food. I figured I'd just eat less of the indian food, save the leftovers for later. did i do that? no... here is the grand list of what I JUST ATE.

1. Turkey and cheese sandwich
2. Chicken tikka masala
3. rice
4. 2 pieces of naan
5. samosa w/ sauce
6. steamed lentil soupy thingy on more rice
7. salad
8. mango lassi
9. 4 fried dough dumplings soaked in sugar syrup (dessert)

everything i ordered, i finished in its entirety. scraped the plate clean.

I calculated it all out, the amounts of what i ate and how much i ate...
drum roll please...
and the grand total iss....... 1600 CALORIES! i just consumed 1600 fucking calories in one meal!!!

and i feel soooo sick. i stopped eating about an hour ago, but the sickness hasn't gone away. it's gone from a constant piercing nausea to know just a dull pain in my stomach. i can feel all the food still! it actually feels like a fucking BRICK in my stomach. i was debating whether or not i should throw up cause i felt sooo sick from too much food, but then i concluded that i would feel worse after throwing up probs. plus i really hate throwing up so i def wouldve chickened out anyways. but this is literally like the worst pain ever. 1600 calories. good lord. that's more than i was supposed to eat all day.

THIS IS A WARNING TO ALL. i'd been so good on my diet and i just binged. dont ever binge! it isnt fun! i wish i had a time machine sooo bad so i could go back in time, and uneat it all. ugh. ughghghghghg

and yes. i did just write an entire lj entry about a meal.

yeahhh so i bought this bag of animal crackers yesterday. i opened it and ate half the bag. then i brought it to work today and once i opened it, i finished the rest of the bag. i read the label and ends up that bag contained 8 servings. and i finished it in 2 sittings. FML.

so yeah diet = fail but not like thats a surprise haha. in other news I WANT TO COME HOME! GET ME OUT OF PENNSYLVANIA! mehhh this last weekend i've gotten espeically homesick because certain ppl i'm living with now, are starting to bug me. a lot. i miss my family. living with this one is fine for now, but i miss living in oregon with my real one.

and in other news, i have started watching like 4 new tv shows since i've been here. they are, in no particular order, as follows:
1) It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia
2)Pretty Little Liars
3) The Biggest Loser
4) The Hard Times of RJ Berger

all excellent shows that i would recommend if u ever get bored and feel like watching something.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH WHY DID I EAT SO MANY ANIMAL CRACKERS. i hate it when i feel sick cause i just ate too much.

in other words i have just been sitting around all day at work. and i feel a little guilty for being so unproductive. meh. fuck bitches get money, right?

i cannot WAIT to come home and do things with everyone! i miss LO! i have so many ideas of things i want to do; and i'm anxious to make em happen :D

oh my goodness this week was soooooo long. thank god its over. i leave today for NYC! I'm staying with my sister at her friend's apartment tonight and then with my roomie tomorrow, cause she lives in Queens. yaaay vaca!

DUDE this week sucked and i'm super fat which is making me depressed :(. screw being sick so that i can't work out and screw my late night binges. mehhhh. i've decided: this summer i'm doing those yoga classes at 24 hour fitness and going to Tease and Tone at Vega. time to GET BUFF. who's with me??

haha and i only have 4 more weeks till i get to return home! i already have a hella long list of things i want to do this summer and i'm sooooo excited. i'd tell you... but it's a surprise mwahah. slash i dont feel like finding my phone and writing out the list. but besides, you dont need to know because the more spontaneous things are the better right??

la da da i'm pretty sure nobody's going to see this... but i'm bored at work so whatevs i'm still going to update.

I just looked thru pictures of that new Harry Potter theme park on cnn.com and lemme tell you, i want to GO SO BAD. whyyyyy does it have to be in florida?? how am i going to ever get to florida and get to go?? next spring break can we please all meet up and fly down there or something!! it looks so awesome and you can buy butterbeers and go on rides! this may sound really nerdy but what can i say, maybe i'm a nerd. SO WHAT. I'M STILL A ROCKSTAR.

going to a pizza place for lunch today yaaaaaayyyyy for not being good to my diet!!! and then i get to leave work early and ride the bus to the big apple! life is good right now- i cant wait to leave pennsylvania again and do cool things. yayayayayayyyyy

only thing that coudl be better, is i wish i didnt have to wake up at frickin 6:30am this morning. my uncle needed to come into work early and so, of course since he is my ride, that meant i came in early too. mehhh this is the second day in a row i've had to wake up too early and me no likey.

welllllll i should wrap this rambling entry up. is anybody even gonig to see this?? probs not haha. well c4n

ITTTTT'S FRIIIIIIDAAAAYYYY!!!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYY!

and i am escaping my horribly monotonous life here in pennsylvania at 4:30pm today, to go to Jersey for the weekend!

I'M SO EXCITED!!!!

I've officially moved out of Lehigh and to my uncle's house, where I'll be living for the next 7 weeks. I start work tomorrow! I'm sooo excited to make money cause according to my dad who asked my uncle, I'm gonna be making like $10.50/hr which is a lot since i'm working full workdays for 5 days a week. i hope he hasnt misheard, lol.
but i'm kind of sad right now because my dad just left to fly back home, and now i miss him alredy and feel super homesick. he flew over here to help me unpack my room, THANK GOD cause that was quite a feat to accomplish. i had collected soooo much shit its unbelievable, so literally to unpack it i just started dumping my stuff in garbage bags.
I'm living in my uncle's computer room/guest room, which unfortunately is kind of small and there's nowhere to put my clothes! even tho there's a closet and a dresser in here... because both the closet and dresser is filled with their misc things and are full already. so its like all my stuff is literally just crammed in the corner and its impossible to find anything, cause i have to dig thru suitcases and garbage bags. i need to figure some sort of organizational system out....
i'm super obese and the diet starts NOW. i went clothes shopping yesterday cause i thought that i would need nice attire for work (i shoudl have just asked my uncle before going shopping tho, cause apparently work is super casual and i dont need to dress up at all. so all that money spent was completely unnecessary, gah). I was size 5 before i came to college. i am now size 10-12. WTF. dont worry, u guys wont ever have to see me like this because i'm going to slim down by july. i'll keep u posted on my success.

aaaahhh i wonder if anyone's going to actually read this? either way i dont really care, cause it's just fun to update and talk about myself lol. yes i'm vain. okay i'm gonna go for a run now: there's a college right by my uncle's house with a track = SCORE.

to anyone who does read this: lets plz vid chat soon because literally i have nothing to do here when i'm not at work. i just sit in my computer room, on my computer, i figure i'm probably going to watch a loooooot of free movies online while i'm here cause besides working out and eating, theres not much for me to do. so help keep me entertained!! :D text meeeee!

love you all MISS YOU ALL.

Alright, so everything is finally starting to settle down. This last week has been CRAZINESS, but now things are in order again. a.k.a. I'm getting my school projects done with, and i'm getting on top of my work. There's only two more weeks of school left for me!!! I'm half excited half sad... excited to be done with classes but sad because it means freshman year is officially over. and freshman year, first semester, was definitely one of the happiest most fun exciting times of my life. second semester, a little less fun and a little more work. but nevertheless, once the year is over there's no going back to freshman times. wah.

I miss home so much though! merp; July 7 can't come fast enough. Pri visited me this last weekend!! and we made a list of things-to-do this summer. sorry meredith, we may have volunteered your house for some things, before getting ur consent haha.

Here's the new summer 2010 list so far:
-Chocolate fondue night with Mere's mom's fondue set
-more delicious dinner parties where you guys cook mwahah (think new years eve)
-oaks park
-bake a fondant cake
-SWIM SWIM SWIM! hittin up the lake, or one of the rivers like every day!
-i really want to walk across the railroad bridge. i think i'm one of the only ppl in LO thats never been up there before
-vancouver lake (get ready guys... it may actually happen this year haha)
-go to some water park in washington that pri always saw on the way to regattas
-some tennis and some frisbee
-make music videos!

well that's all the ideas so far.

Well lately my body has decided to go all hormonal and shit on me. so while i'm desperately trying to "diet," it's all like "EAT EAT FOOD CRAVINGS ICE CREAM CHOCOLATE" and this isn't good. you guys i have to wear a swimsuit in like 2 weeks! ASJF;LSIE;A and the worst part is as i'm writing this, i'm sucking on jolly ranchers. fuuuukas;fiea what's wrong with me. honestly nobody has to worry about me ever truly becoming anorexic, because that would be physically impossible for me to do.

maybe its stress? i mean i do have 3 tests in a row next week and lemme tell you... "unprepared" is the understatement of the year. i was actually in the middle of studying chem when i decided to stop and update my lj. huh, maybe that's part of the problem.

okay so it's not official yet but i do have to tell you all something a little sad: i've already told several of ya but in case you havent heard, I won't be back this summer until beginning of July. Once school ends, I'm staying over here with my uncle for an extra 2 months. It's cause he promised me that I could intern with him at his job, and since he works at BIOMOL and i'm looking to get a biological job someday, it's sort of a priceless opportunity that i cant sacrifice. even though i want to be home ALL SUMMER cause i miss LO so much :( and it is literally going to kill me when you all get to go home and hang out without me! guhhhh... i cannot wait to just relax and chill with you all :) playing vid games at pri and sara's houses, baking at mere's, watching tv at megs', tanning in rachel's backyard, raiding erica's pantry, all things on the to-do list!

Well i better study for chem now, test on monday! then a marketing test on tuesday. then a microeconomics test on wednesday. then i'm probably going to skip classes for the rest of the week cause i'll be so burnt out from all that test-taking.

P.S. i have syphillis
P.P.S. happy april fools day!

Okay so the weather this week is BEAUTIFUL over here, it's been like high 60's to low 70's and sunny. Which is super awesome, but has sort of scared me cause it reminded me that summer is so close. and when i think of the summer, i remember how last summer we literally went swimming like 3 times a week in the lake, or the river, or in ppl's pools...and i'm super excited to get to go swimming all the time and get tan again! ahhh i looove being tan. but the problem is i dont think i can physically wear a bikini right now sooo... aneroxia diet is a go haha.

you guys i cant wait for summer so bad! reading mere's lj entry just now got me excited to get to lounge around LO again. of course, it's also going to be super depressing when summer starts because that means freshman year is over, and i hate it when things end like that. like then i wont be a freshman in college anymore? waahhh. i actually like being a college freshman.

Merp i'm soo fucking busy this weekend it's out of control. and i didnt get to go out friday or saturday night because of it. ugh i'm not gonna bore you with the details but i'll just say that i've literally in my room like 2 times in the last 2 days cause i always have to be places, and then today i have dance practice from 1:30-10PM!!!!!! WTF it's so inhumane, i try to not really think about it cause im worried that if i grasp the gravity of the situation, i'll quit the team.

anyways i'm glad that mere, erica, and me have actually been using lj... and i wish more of you would! i know megs forgot her password *cough*LAME EXCUSE*cough* but pri and sara still can!

well i gotta get shit done now since i will be at dance for 8.5 hrs today, so c4n.